Okay so I had one last break down the other day but now im finished.. I've let go. And thats all ive got to say about that.

IM SO READY FOR SCHOOL TO START! This year is gonna be soooooo much better than last year. I'm a sophmore, I know where everything is, more of my friends will be going to school with me, yay! hehe! Im excited! I go back on Tuesday. So yeah.. hows everyone doin? I miss you Lauren! Just givin ya a little shout out! Hope all is well. LOVE EVERYONE ELSE TOO! I LOVE EVERYBODY YAY HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY! lol! Take care and God bless.. and make sure you never ever ever lick a stop sign in the dark!

Okay so who knew that being single felt as good as it does? I was in a retarded long distance relationship for almost an entire year, and he just deletes me from his life, at first it seemed like the end of the world, but I'm coming to find out that life without Adam isnt as bad as I thought. I have a lot of time for my friends, I can actually talk to all my friends who are guys again, without feeling guilty or being guilted into not talking to them because he is jealous. I can stay out late.. and not worry about whether I'll talk to him. Yesterday my friend put it quite simply "So.. you must be happy yall broke up.. now you're free." And thats exactly what I am.. I'm free. I'll never forget him, and I'll always love him, but he's the one who let me go, and he's the one who should be hurting, not me.. it's clearly not worth the pain. I'm free.. I can go have fun.. someday.. some guy.. I'll love again..even more than the first time, and wow.. what a lucky guy he will be, because I gave Adam all I had, and the next guy will get even more. Looking forward to the future, but enjoying the present. I'm happy and free, who wouldnt wanna be me? :) It's nice to feel happy again...I havent been truly happy in a very long time. Heck I feel down right optimistic! YaY! Brooke is back and she's better than ever! Hey now! Yeah.. it feels good. I love yall! Take care and God bless! Until we meet again... think of large hairy women who give horrible massages! MWUAH!

<3 bRooKe

Heh my knight in shining armor turned out to be a jerk in aluminum foil

Alright..It's over. He's no longer apart of my life and its his own fault. Yes, I love him, and I'll miss him.. but he broke my heart for the last time. It's hard to let go of something, that I have put my entire heart into.. I really will miss him from the very inner being of my soul.. but I guess thats just how the world turns. Now all I need to do.. is take a deep breath.. breathe.. and move on. Thank you everyone, for listening to me, for putting up with me, and just being there for me, especially you matty. God bless. Pray for my heart to heal.

<3 bRooKe

So what I"m not your average girl
I don't meet the standards of this world
Chasing after boys is not my thing
See I'm waiting for a wedding ring

No more dating
I'm just waiting
Like sleeping beauty
My prince will come for me
No more dating I'm just waiting
'Cause God is writing my love story

Boys are bad that's certainly not true
'Cause God's preparing one for you
If you get tired waiting till he comes
Gods arms are the perfect place to run

Sleep that's the only thing
For me 'cause when I sleep Gods
Preparing one for me

This song Always cheers me up. Adam is my prince and he will come for me. I love him and he loves me and I thank God that he wrote Adam into my love story.

You know what hurts? Someone getting mad at you for no reason.. and not just someone.. but a best friend.. a really good person that you really love and want to be part of your life.. it sucks when they get mad at you without any right.. and try to punish you for something you didnt do.. and then basically .. the friendship falls apart. That hurts.. and Im sad about it.